a mission of love forgotten in the wastelands
splintered water emotions hate love thereafter
what is the thing that was there and is no longer
I hate you though I once loved
but now we are forever apart
and the seas laugh at my wake
and I stumble along the surface looking for something
but what it is I am not too sure anymore

oh why must I
keep myself so distant
from everyone I meet
and why is it
that I am ignored
by the only people
who could help

but what does it matter in the end
as I stand on the edge looking forward
I know it’s only a matter of time before the slip
and I do not really care about it anymore
so I release my grip
and I let it all out now
and the feeling is relaxing
so I know that the only way out is to just go

what of the moon and the stars that shine on a clear night
what of the sun and the bright blue sky
what of love and the pain it brings
and what of you and your petty little things
what of the control and the lack thereof
and what of the mission that we always dreamed of
what of the space that lies in between
the heart that loves and the brain that hates
the bones and the organs that give us life
the pieces that make up our endlessness
the part of me that just wants to die
and the part that just wants to examine the sky
and the part that just wants to curl up and cry

I forgive you but I cannot forgive myself
I know that I am broken and cannot be fixed
no amount of love or tension will ever solve this
so I am resigned to live alone amongst the trees
because in the end I know there is no hope for me
and as I lay down and try to sleep
I cannot
because your face haunts me every night
and I cannot seem to get the words right
to describe just how I feel
about how things transpired between us

but then again I think you’ve gotten over it
so it is just me
lost in my own nightmares spit
I know this is where I belong
so I will hold on just so long
as you keep pushing forward out of the dust
but please remember the time it was us

please remember
please do not forget
none of this was your fault
don’t read too much into this
but please
do not forget
that you are stuck inside me
and I cannot let go